Confession Tuesday...oh yeah, it's Wednesday

Oh well. Sorry about that. You know, Monday was a holiday...throws everything off.

So yesterday, in the late afternoon, I had just come in from cutting grass. I was beginning to make dinner and was standing in the kitchen. Joanna came in from work. She got a drink, made some small talk and then she hugged me.

That is when it happened.

She hugged me, and I completely left the space time continuum. As I stood there in the kitchen hugging her, it became 1993 for me. I smelled her hair, and she was just a little wee baby. I used to hold her all the time and smell her. Babies smell so good. She was my first baby, and it was such a novelty.

She hugged me, and for no apparent reason I became acutely aware that she will be leaving home before too very long. In just a month or so, she will become a senior. College is looming ever closer, and I just could not contain myself.

The tears just came. I could not help it. And I don't mean a little bit. I mean full on bawling. It upset her because she did not know what happened, and I tried to explain. There is no explaining though. Is this a stupid menopause thing? I'm not that old am I?!? I am not generally an overly emotional person. Good night. I hope that it doesn't keep happening.

I just had to go lock myself in the bathroom and get it all out. Geeeeezzzz...