Heavy Heart Today

I missed confession Tuesday. I was too busy, and yesterday was a horrible day. I will have to confess twice as much next week. I am confident in my having enough flaws to meet that goal.

I had to go pick up Charlotte from school yesterday. She called and was very distraught. One of her closest friends had died in his sleep the night before, and the principal had just told her.

Charlotte is my quietest child. She is very reserved, and she has few close friends. She really has just one best friend, Marissa...but the two of them are good friends of Josh, the young man who passed away. He was Charlotte's boyfriend for a month and a half earlier this year. He had a seizure while he was sleeping. His parents found him in the morning when they tried to wake him up for school. He was 14.

I have a heavy heart today...for his family of course, but for my daughter. She cried herself to sleep last night while I lay there with her...and there was really nothing that I could say. We just laid there and cried. She is 13. Somehow that just does not seem old enough to have to face these kinds of things. She was close to my grandmother who passed away about 18 months ago, but my grandmother was 84. It's not the same as losing someone your own age, a friend.

This has been one of the most difficult things that I have ever faced as a mom. I just was at a loss for words. It will be a difficult several days for Charlotte.